Tuesday 14 January 2020

Too late or should I try?

20 years old.

What a perfect time to be lost and clueless.

I'm no stranger to this feeling. In fact, I have been lost even as I enter University.

I do enjoy my current course (Economics) because of my interest in data and analysis.

But I find myself being drawn to a different career path that is not related to my major?

I could not believe it myself as I told myself I never wanted to go down that path in the future.

But I guess now I'm thinking of pursuing the path that every Asian parent wants their kid to do.

Yes, it's the legendary Medicine course.

It's going to be hard for me since I haven't taken science for a long time...

Right now my goal is to graduate with my Economics degree and get good honours (and good CAP!). Following that, I will have to work for a few years in order to earn enough money to pay for medical school (school fees are expensive). I will most likely have to juggle work and prepare for the MCAT (Medical College Admissions Test). And go through numerous rounds of interviews before I get accepted/rejected/waitlisted. 

I don't know if my goal will change in a few years time, but we'll see. 

Haiz, being young and clueless is tiring...

Tuesday 24 December 2019

End of Y1S1

I honestly cannot believe how time flies. I have already finished my first semester in NUS early this month. With the release of Y1S1 exam results yesterday, I have decided to write up a post about my first semester in NUS.

Honestly, I was really doubtful and felt undeserving of my place in NUS FASS at first. My 'A' Level results barely qualified me a place in NUS and knowing how competitive NUS is, all I felt was lots of uncertainty. But thank god for the people around me that made me enjoy my first semester! My Econs Camp OG Mates (whom I will be seeing more often in the 2nd semester), my secondary school friends and friends/seniors I met along the way - I'm extremely grateful for them. Thank you for listening to this weird girl's rants and giving lots of advice to this lost freshie. 

On a more delightful note, I am glad to announce that I have been chosen to be part of the organising committee of Econs Camp 2020. I'm really excited about what's in store and I can't wait to meet new freshies :) In addition, I have been made a FASS Student Outreach Ambassador as well and I will be attending a 1-day training session in 2 weeks time. I really hope that I can help my juniors regarding University choices and I also hope that it will allow me to be a better speaker haha.

Okay, time for the more serious stuff a.k.a. my Y1S1 results. I'm honestly quite happy with it because I haven't seen these kinds of grades since Secondary School.

1. CFG1002 Career Catalyst - CS
To be honest, you don't have to spend so much time on this module. Just go for classes, do the polls and upload your resume onto VMock and you'll be fine. Don't worry too much.

2. EC1101E Introduction to Economic Analysis - B+ 
The B+ came as a pleasant surprise since I was expecting a B- or at best a B due to the rather horrible finals. The final exam was hard, because of all the macroeconomics topics being tested. EC1101E is quite different from JC Econs, except for the microeconomics section. Macroeconomics is super different. Also, the final exam was all MCQs (72 questions in 2hours) and there weren't any short answer questions like the ones in previous semesters. I cannot stand the lecture notes done by the macroeconomics lecturer because it is so disorganised. I appreciate my TA's notes though. What I did was to compile the lecture notes and the TA's notes and made my own notes. Also, I did all the revision questions and even did the textbook questions (they are good for the more Maths-y questions). 

3. FAS1101 Writing Academically: Arts and Social Sciences - B (S/Ued)
I don't know how to feel about this module. I performed rather average throughout the whole course. I enjoyed my topic but since I'm not a very good writer myself, I found it hard to explain my arguments. Also, my counter-argument and rebuttal got shot down badly. When I saw my final essay score, I already knew I was going to exercise my S/U options for this module. I like my tutor though and I think she is a pretty good tutor. I'm just glad this is over. 

4. HY1101E Asia and the Modern World - A-
I won't say I enjoyed this module. I appreciate the efforts of the Profs and my TA though. I screwed up my second assignment and attained a B. But I did well for my first and final assignments (both A-). The weekly quizzes worth 20% of the module was very easy to score well. And tutorial participation is not that hard to do well also. I expected to get an A- so I'm happy!

5. LAK1201 Korean 1 - A
I did not do very well for the finals and my final score was below median. The median for finals was freaking 89.5/100 and I only attained 88 (it's still high BUT I was damn scared about bell curve). Nonetheless, I think it was my other components that pulled me up like my midterms which I scored 100 (not trying to brag but I'm sure my midterms helped a lot). Anyways, consistent effort is key to doing well for this module. 

6. GES1008 Ethnicity and Nation-building: Singapore and Malaysia - A
This is an easy module for me. Getting a good grade for the group presentation is not very hard. Just make sure you fulfill the requirements of the group presentation. Prof only marks for content so you can read your script from your phone. I didn't know what kind of answer he wanted for midterms but just answer the question based on lecture notes and readings and you'll be fine. As for finals, 3 out of 4 questions were easy and straightforward. The lecture notes and readings would suffice! And go for lectures so that you can easily understand the content. I love this module and this is my favourite module this semester. 

Without S/Uing any module, my CAP stands at a 4.4. I am happy as it is well above my target of a 4 or above. I'm not planning to achieve first-class honours because of my decision to not do Honours' Thesis (I will explain that another day) and thus a second-upper honours CAP score is good enough for me. Anyways, I didn't want that B to drag my CAP down so I S/Ued it and my CAP is now 4.63 which is well, a first-class honours CAP score. I hope to maintain these kinds of grades in the following semesters or do even better. 

Wednesday 13 November 2019

UNILYFE: Why Economics (and not History)?

I'm currently an undergraduate at the Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences (FASS), National University of Singapore. As mentioned in my previous post, I do not have a major yet. I should be declaring my intended major (Economics) by next semester.

Honestly, my intended major comes as a surprise to many of my close friends and classmates. This is because my intended major during my secondary school and junior college days was not Economics - it was actually Law/History/Political Science. In fact, I disliked Mathematics and Science a lot to the point that I even declared to my Secondary 4 Co-form teacher (who's a Chemistry teacher, by the way) that I was going to pursue the Arts stream in JC. That did not happen because I ended up in the Science Stream by luck. Regardless, I still pursued my interest in History and I took H2 History at the A-Levels.

Pursuing Economics was not something that I considered at all during my schooling years. I knew Economics at the university level was really different from what I did in JC. Unlike JC Economics which requires one to churn out essays and essays, university Economics requires you to think more like a Mathematician/Statistician. AND I didn't really enjoy Mathematics, especially in JC. I was really very keen on pursuing History or something related. Basically, anything that required me to write essays.

But life hit me hard in JC where I could never perform well in H2 History. My highest grade for the subject was a C (at Prelims and at A-Levels). I started to doubt my ability to do well in History. Although my grade should not be the only defining factor on whether I should pursue the subject at a higher level, I still felt like I was not good enough. Hence, I told myself that I was not going to pursue History at university.

Honestly, I was still very lost during the A-Levels and even after getting my results, I was still confused by what I wanted to do. I narrowed down my options to either Political Science or Economics. Both are really interesting disciplines but I decided to go with Economics in the end. I enjoyed making sense of data. "What do these data mean? What do they signify? How are we to make use of these data and findings to improve policies?" This was when I realized I should pursue Economics at university.

In my previous post, I mentioned how I didn't want to pursue History anymore, even for a 2nd major or minor. Guess what, I had a change of heart somehow and I'm going to pursue a minor in History. NUS History has too little modules that I'm genuinely interested in. In fact, they used to have so many interesting modules but it was discontinued. I'm intending to take HY2260 History and Popular Culture next semester. I hope it goes well because I heard that it is a good module to take.

That's all for today! I'm going to do a revamp of my blog website too because I want to post my own opinions on some current affairs issues.

Monday 23 September 2019

Recess Week Update: A Quick Guide to NUS FASS & Module Review AY2019/2020 Y1S1

It has probably been about 2 months since I've entered National University of Singapore (NUS) as an undergraduate at the Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences (FASS). NUS FASS works pretty differently from other faculties in NUS, in the sense that a majority of us enter the school on an "undeclared plan" i.e., we do not have a major at the point of admission. It is only after completing (and passing) the introductory module(s) of our intended major would we then be majoring in something. That being said, it actually gives us a lot of freedom and time in choosing our majors carefully. During FASS Orientation Talks, a lot of deans were telling us how some students went in intending to major in X, but after doing the introductory module of X, realised that they didn't like it and chose to major in Y instead. I think that this pretty common, as I've heard of people majoring in something else that wasn't their intended major.

Anyways, as a Y1 in FASS, you'll realised you will have quite a fair bit of modules being pre-allocated to you. Basically, here are the modules that will be pre-allocated to you in Y1 and Y2:
1. FAS1101 & FAS1102 - to be cleared in Y1. You will be allocated one in Semester 1 and the other in Semester 2.
2. GER1000 - to be cleared in Y1. You will be allocated it in either Semester 1 or Semester 2. This is the module that every Undergrad in NUS must take. Like it or not, you don't really have a choice.
3. GEQ1000 - to be allocated in either Y1S2, Y2S1 or Y2S2. Again, another compulsory Uni module that everyone has to take unless you are in Residential Colleges (RC).
4. GET1050 - to be allocated in either Y1S2, Y2S1 or Y2S2. This is a FASS compulsory module that fulfills your GET requirement.
5. CFG1002 - to be cleared in Y1. You will be allocated it in either Semester 1 or Semester 2.

In addition, we also have to take at 1 introductory module from each of the 3 baskets: Asian Studies, Humanities and Social Sciences.

Asian Studies: Chinese Language (actually, Chinese linguistics), Chinese Studies, South Asian Studies, Southeast Asian Studies, Malay Studies and Japanese Studies

Humanities: History, English  Language (actually, English linguistics), English Literature, Theatre Studies, Philosophy

Social Sciences: Economics, Psychology, Political Science, Sociology, Social Work, Geography and Communications and New Media

Others: Global Studies (can be counted as clearing Humanities/Social Sciences basket), European Studies, PPE (Philosophy, Political Science and Economics - this is a new programme)

Besides this, all incoming FASS Y1 students had a chance to participate in the module preference exercise for the introductory modules that we want to take. Basically you are given 4 options and the school will try to pre-allocate your top 2 choices. I was confused by the whole exercise thing and only put down 1 option. Luckily, I actually managed to secure that 1 module.

Without further ado, let's dive into the module review on the modules I'm taking in AY2019/2020 Y1S1.

1. EC1101E - Introduction to Economic Analysis
No. of credits: 4 MCs
Can be counted as: To clear Social Sciences basket or as an UE. Popular module among FASS students to clear the Social Sciences basket.
Assessment breakdown:
Tutorial Participation (10%)
Pre-lecture Quizzes (6%)
Post-lecture Quizzes (9%)
Mid-terms (25%)
Finals (50%)
What it is: For now, we have already cleared the microeconomics part of the module. The concepts are pretty okay and most of the things were covered in JC H2 Economics. There were a few new things taught such as Coase Theorem (under Market Failure), Common Resources (under Market Failure) and Game Theory & Prisoners' Dilemma (under Market Structure). They actually cut down a lot of content in market structure so what you will learn is really nothing compared to what you had to endure in H2 Econs. 

Doing well for the pre-lecture and post-lecture quizzes should not be a problem. Discuss with your friends on the questions that you struggle with! That's the advice I can give to you. Also, the quizzes have a time limit so yeah do not leave it hanging.


Tutorial participation is also pretty okay. My TA split us into groups and as a group, we work together to discuss the problem set questions. Then we all take turns to present. So far, I have presented once in class. It can be a bit nerve wrecking to present. Also, participating in forum discussions is another way to get some tutorial points too. So try to participate in that! Another weird thing about tutorials is that they are all held at UTown instead of FASS. I think it's because there are many students taking this module (almost 500) and perhaps FASS don't have enough venues for everyone so it is all held at UTown. 


Mid-terms is after recess week. And it is all MCQs. And nope, there aren't past year papers you can refer to as they collect it and don't return it to you. But the Prof did upload 2 practice tests quizzes on LumiNUS for us to try. Just revise your problem sets and go through the pre and post lecture quizzes. Should be ok.


2. HY1101E - Asia and the Modern World

No. of credits: 4 MCs
Can be counted as: To clear Humanities basket or as an UE. Usually not a super popular module, but the enrollment for this semester was the highest that they have seen in a long while. I guess it's because this module has NO EXAMS. Then again, the syllabus for this module changes very frequently, depending on who's lecturing.
Assessment breakdown:
Tutorial Participation (20%) 
Pre-lecture and post-lecture quizzes (20%) 
Fictional Diary Entry/Report Assignment (10%) 
Media and History Assignment (20%)
Final Research Essay (30%)
What it is: Currently, I dislike this module a lot. Not because of the assignments that I have to do (essay writing is quite a norm for me since I did so much of it back in JC). But rather the lecture content? They were in my opinion, pretty boring since I never paid alot of attention during lectures. There's a new topic covered every lecture to give you a taste of what History is. But they don't really go into much detail. So it's more breadth than depth. Anyways, don't think the module is very representative of Uni History at all. I initially wanted to take a 2nd major/minor in History but after this module, I doubt I'm interested at all. Guess I wish just take some History modules for fun, but not majoring/minoring in it.

Advice for those wanting to major in History in NUS: Go take some other level 2000 modules before choosing to major in it. 


3. GES1008 - Ethnicity and Nation-Building: Singapore and Malaysia

No. of credits: 4 MCs
Can be counted as: To clear your GES (Singapore Studies pillar) requirement or as an UE.
Assessment breakdown:
Tutorial Participation (10%)
Group Presentation (20%)
Open-book Mid-terms (20%)
Open-book Finals (50%)
What it is: To me, it's a really interesting module! You will never look at race, ethnicity and nation-building issues in the same light after this. It's a module offered by the Department of Malay Studies but throughout the lectures, there are also sociology concepts brought up too, like Sociological Imagination. I'm so mind blown by the whole module itself and it has really challenged my beliefs so far.

As for the group presentation, if you have decent group members, it will go pretty fine. My group members were really good and we worked pretty hard on it 6 days before our presentation date. It was 6 days of working on the slides, discussion, Skyping to rehearse our presentation etc. My group is pretty diverse. Got 1 exchange student from USA, a Y4 Political Science student and 3 Y1s (including me). Also, this module has a lot of exchange students! My tutorial class has like A LOT of exchange students. Like literally at least half the class. 


Mid-terms next week and Prof said it's short essay questions. Like your response should be around half a page to 1 page long (if single-lined). There's 2 questions to do. Will update after I'm done with it. 


Fun fact: Prof teaches the most popular GES module called GES1035 (which is very popular as it is a Pass/Fail module). I didn't attempt to choose that module. There was like 3 vacancies in Round 2 of ModReg (Module Registration) and there were like almost 800 students trying to get it. 


4. FAS1101 - Writing Academically

No. of credits: 4 MCs
Can be counted as: Faculty Core requirements. All FASS students have to take it in Y1.
Assessment breakdown:
Tutorial Participation (15%)
Research Proposal (15%)
Overview Essay (25%)
Final Essay (45%)
What it is: Basically a module that teaches you how to write University academic essays. I did pretty average for the Research Proposal, based on the feedback given. I'm not very surprised since essay writing isn't my forte. We have to choose a topic from any of the content packages given. 
Content package topics:
  1. Southeast Asian Studies (Supernaturalism) - My initial topic. After doing the readings, realised I didn't like it.
  2. History (The 1919 Paris Peace Treaty)
  3. CELC (The Moral Permissibility of the Death Penalty) - Most popular topic chosen by the students.
  4. English Language and Literature (Sociolinguistics)  - The topic that I chose in the end. 
  5. Sociology (The Sociology of Crime and Deviance)
  6. English Language & Literature ( The Writing of Flannery O’Connor)
  7. CELC (Law, Marriage and the Same-Sex Debate) - New topic. Pretty popular too.
Research proposal is basically like the introduction of your essay. Overview essay is like the introduction + body of your essay. Final Essay is just like what a complete essay should be. 

5. LAK1201 - Korean 1
No. of credits: 4 MCs
Can be counted as: UE. Or to clear Minor requirements if you chose to take up a minor in Language Studies (Korean), which essentially is still clearing UEs.
Assessment breakdown:
Participation (10%) - includes lecture participation & the vocab quizzes. And the eLearning lecture videos that you have to watch before each lesson.
Assignments (15%) - 3 assignments in total. 2 are writing ones and 1 is an oral one.
Oral tests (15%) - 2 oral tests
Midterms & Finals (60%) 
What it is: You will learn all the Hangul in the first few lessons and some basic grammar. Also, there's like new vocab every week. Please revise your content regularly! And good to make notes for this module because there's a lot going on every week. The workload for this module is heavier too. 2 2 hour lectures/tutorials (actually it's more of a seminar-style class) per week. ALSO THERE ARE ALSO FAKE NOOBS TAKING THIS MODULE SO THE BELL CURVE CAN BE PRETTY STEEP. As such, please do not slack and work hard for this module. But this module is also very fun and the only class that I have fun haha. Also my classmates are pretty hardworking too - some of them created Memrise decks to revise our vocab. So it has been a good time so far. 

Just to add, I'm in SEP-LPP (Student Exchange Programme - Language Preparation Programme) so I will be pre-allocated 1 Korean module per semester (until Y2S2). And I actually intend to go exchange in Korea so this was a good opportunity to learn Korean :)

P.S. Although in the first lesson, some girl decided to leave the class halfway by declaring that she is going to drop the module. So much drama LOL. Another complaint that I have is that my class is on the 6th floor of AS4 and the lifts in AS4 are upgrading, so it is 6 floors every week. 

6. CFG1002 - Career Catalyst
No. of credits: 2 MCs
Can be counted as: UE. It's a faculty requirement. So yup FASS students, you don't have a choice.
It's only worth half a semester. So you either clear it in Week 1-6 of the semester or Week 7-12 of the semester. Also, it's pre-allocated. Mine is in Week 7-12 of the semester. From what I have heard, it's kinda useless and the only thing you will learn is how to write a good resume. Also, out of 6 lectures, you only need to come for 4 of it as the other 2 are online lectures. Very chill module. Also it is a Pass/Fail module so don't worry yo.

With that, I have come to the end of my module review for the modules I'm taking this semester. Will update more once this semester finishes and when my exam results are out. (I AM EAGERLY WAITING) 

Feel free to leave comments! I'll try my best to answer them!

P.S. Longest blog post ever. 

Saturday 21 July 2018

Why I like Roads

I like roads. To me, its not just roads. It means a lot more than just the physical aspect of it.

Roads are not just concrete pathways for the transportation or movement of people and goods from one place to another.

To me, roads symbolizes the uncertainties in the journeys we travel in life. Take for example, there are many different ways to get to one destination. You could choose the take the shortcut. But you may end up being stuck in a jam. Or you could take the lesser traveled path. The longer route. Yes, it may be longer and you may have to go through numerous exits, detours and traffic lights before you get there. Well, in life, there are shortcuts and longer routes. While shortcuts get you to the destination within a short period of time, it is, in my opinion, temporal. You only end up in one destination. What about the endless destinations that lies ahead of you? Hence, shortcuts are temporary solutions. They aren't always going to work. You may be lucky once or twice, but not forever. On the other hand, longer routes get you to multiple destinations. Yes, you may have to put in more effort, more work before getting to the supposedly end destination you had set out in mind. But it's all worth it. You get to appreciate what all those little destinations (before you reached the final one) mean. They may not be something very outstanding. But it's all these little 'destinations' that helped you reached the final destination.

And hence, that explains my blog name: The Endless Road. I don't know what the future entails. I don't know what lies ahead of me. I don't know who am I going to meet. I don't know what may happen in the future. But one thing I know. It's all these uncertainties that spurs me forward. That brings out the curiosity in me. It gets me excited about my future.


Saturday 2 June 2018

满足感

"He who knows has enough is rich. " - Lao Tzu

今天,上完了英文补习之后,我感触良多。这一堂课让我从另一个角度看待生活,也让我更加了解生活的意义。今天这一堂课,我们了解了这个看来很奇怪的题目:满足感。
满足感其实对每一个人来说都有不同的理解。有些人觉得,如果我有很多钱,我已经满足了,但是有些人却不这么认为。其实,满足感,是看你怎样看待它。对我来说,我觉得我已经很满足了,因为我有我所拥有的,例如,一个温暖的家,上学的机会等。

其实,也有些人认为我们是不可能完全满足的,因为当我们认为我们已经完成了这一个目标,另外个任务等待着我们。就好像一条漫长没有结头的路,当我们到了这个阶段,其实,路上还有几万个阶段等待我们去面对。人生就是那么复杂。

你对满足感是这么看待的呢?

Friday 1 June 2018

漠不关心

台湾著名女歌手陈绮贞曾在《不在他方》写过这一句:
“人生是用来享受的,不是用来理解世界的。”

我觉得这句子虽简单,但常常被人忽略。

总觉得念书的时候常常遇到这问题,让自己有时候读得很痛苦。我时时刻刻想放弃,不管一切,想把桌子上的书本与纸张全撒在地上。主要原因是因为我无法理解某些东西,读了一万次也无法理解,无法牢记住(因为不懂得时候不就是去死背吗?)。

朋友常提醒我:“哎呀无所谓啦,放轻松吧。”

的确。朋友的这番话让我领悟到:世界有很多奇奇怪怪的东西,而且这世界是十分澳大的,一个人是无法知道所有的东西(因为如果人们知道全部的东西,我们就是神仙了。)。

我历史老师常告诉我们,人类做的东西,有时候是没有理智的,连专家都无法理解的。

人类就是那么奇怪的哦。

如果不能理解这奇怪的世界,那就别想太多,做其他有意义的事吧。

为何让自己那么痛苦呢?

去享受吧。

人生就只有一次。

要疯要狂,还不要快一点去享受吧。

(对不起,我已经很久没有用国语了,请体谅!)



Friday 16 March 2018

Purpose

I admit that I'm really not a person who's really very committed about some things that I planned to do initially (ahem, like this blog), but the main purpose as to why I started this blog was to air my opinions and thoughts about my experiences that I have encountered so far throughout my life journey. 

The title of this post is just one word - purpose. 

Why purpose?

Let me just share about some things that I experienced about a month ago.

I remembered that it was the week before my Block Tests (my first official assessment this year). It was a really mundane afternoon and we were all waiting for my school's vice-principal to give a speech to our cohort. Honestly, I thought to myself, " I'm really tired and I really just want to go home and mug (Singlish for studying)." What did I not expect was that his words really changed my attitude towards studying. In Singapore, there is such a great emphasis on grades and everyone is so results-driven that it actually kills off the passion you have for the certain subject. Take myself as an example. I'm actually a History enthusiast but because of my constant failings in Year 1, I gradually lost almost all the passion I had for History at the start of Year 1. It was so bad that I almost gave up with Junior College (JC) and just wanted to run away from school! (Don't be too alarmed, I'm still in JC and struggling with Year 2 because giving up would be such a great disappointment to myself.) The VP told us a few things, in which one of the points he brought up was to not bother too much about the end results. I found this really inspiring, because I actually realized for the first time, that simply because I bothered too much about those digits and those alphabets that I gradually killed off the passion I have. I find this point really important, because the more you do not bother too much about the end results, the better you actually do well in it. Of course, it is still important to set realistic goals for yourself so that it motivates and pushes you to try harder and keep that momentum going. Another point that he brought up which I found it extremely useful, is to find that something that keeps you going, especially in something that you really dislike or abhor. Let's say that you really dislike Economics. Maybe find something that you appreciate in spite of all the negativity you have towards it. For example, you dislike Economics because of the numerous essays you have to write or the huge amount of content that you have to master. Why not take a step back and find something that you appreciate about it. Maybe like how you actually see Economics as something relevant to our everyday lives? While it may sound slightly confusing, my point is that even if you really dislike Economics, why not find that 1% that you appreciate about Economics and keep you going? It's not just for academics by the way, it applies to every single thing that you have to go through in your life. While escaping and avoiding may seem like a solution, the truth is that we can't really avoid things that we hate. So why not just face it and endure? 

Moving onto another story. Just a while ago, I chanced upon this rather interesting Facebook post that made me recall about an incident when I was in Primary 3. To sum up the Facebook post, it was about this guy (I'm assuming he's a teaching intern or a relief teacher. I'm not really sure about his true identity!) who was teaching in a Secondary 1 Normal Academic Class. From his post, he mentioned about how these students were really disinterested in studies and basically they all hated each other. He then decided to conduct this simple experiment, in which he got them to close their eyes and he would simply ask random questions like "I hate Mathematics", "Do you like Kendama?" and "My favourite YouTube Channel is Night Owl Cinematics" etc. Through this experiment, it actually brought them closer as the students realized that they actually had some common interests and that served to ease some of the initial tensions that they had. He then moved on and asked this question on whether anyone lost a loved one before and half of the class stood up, each relating their own stories. It was honestly heartbreaking when I read this, because behind some of their usual smiling faces, it suddenly felt like some of these faces that they appeared to have were just a masks of their own actual feelings. It was then I remembered a really memorable and fond incident back when I was in Primary 3. Some background about myself. I was honestly not the brightest student when I was in P3 and was placed in a rather below average class where I knew of classmates who had family issues or some sort of personal issues. Like the above mentioned Sec 1 class, quite a lot of us hated each other and there were so much tensions that there would be backstabbing and arguments on a rather regular basis. During a drama lesson one day, my drama teacher decided to ask us this question, in which he asked about our honest and genuine opinions towards our own family. I remembered that it was a rather depressing moment because when some of my classmates shared about their opinions, they actually broke down and it was simply devastating. This guy stood up and told all of us that he didn't really like his family because he always felt inferior to his more academically inclined cousin and that his own parents always compared him to his smarter cousin, which made him angry and upset. Can you imagine? We were only 9 years old. Seriously, in a so-called first world country that we live in, despite the supposedly top-notch education that we receive, it seems to appear to me that we are only concerned with the end results, the numbers that we attain after each assessment and the schools that we attend. It seems to appear to me that we are not concerned about the feelings of our own people. It seems to appear to me that from a young age, all that matter are those freaking useless numbers or alphabets that is supposedly a determinant of our future. I have always been strongly opinionated about our education system (Yes, I acknowledged the changes that the government has done, which I felt were really needed. ) But, there's definitely more to it. Policies definitely do need further updates and revamps, in which an important aspect of it is to reduce the obsession we have towards the numbers and alphabets that we attain after every assessment. But I admit that it's not easy because this requires a mindset change, which is a long-term effort. If only we change our mindset, maybe, in the near future, we won't be just nurturing a bunch of book-smart people, but a society of considerate and loving citizens who are able to excel in their respective fields, regardless of whether they had done well in school. 

With this, I hope you find your purpose.

(Feel free to engage in a respectful discourse below in the comments should you have any other views. Thank you.)

Tuesday 23 January 2018

Mental Health and Why it Matters

On 19 December 2017, renowned K-pop idol singer and songwriter, Kim Jonghyun, committed suicide, at the age of 27. Upon further inspection, it was noted that he suffered from depression, in which in the end, after struggling tremendously with it, finally decided to take his own life.

Soon after, news articles about his death started flooding my entire social media news feed, from Facebook to Instagram. I was utterly shocked and saddened to receive this really terrible news.

After all, Jonghyun's musical compositions and works inspired me A LOT, especially during my finals when I was 16. Ironic as it sounds, his musical works were meant to heal people's wounds and give them strength when they were faced with adversities in life when in fact, the one who needed the most comfort and healing was none other than the composer himself.

Following his death, I decided that I had to take some sort of action - be it small or big - to increase awareness of mental health education in Singapore. Now, you may ask, what's with the relation of his death to Singapore? Like South Korea, Singapore is also an extremely stressful society, in many aspects, such as work and education. While South Korea has one of the highest suicide rates in the world, Singapore is nowhere better, in terms of the number of teenage suicides, which has been the high side over these few years. I decided to publish my article to the Straits Times Forum to increase awareness of mental health education in Singapore (you can read it here: http://www.straitstimes.com/forum/letters-in-print/teach-mental-health-in-schools).

While there are currently exisiting programmes to educate the youths about sex education, I personally feel that mental health education is also equally important and therefore there is a need to introduce some kind of educational programme to teach the vulnerable young ones that it is perfectly okay to speak about how they feel towards something. Furthermore, mental health is seen as a rather taboo topic, especially in conservative societies like Singapore, in which people fear talking about it because it is perceived to be a sign of weakness.

While I acknowledge that school counsellors and teachers are available in schools for students to open up about their feelings should they need help, I strongly feel that these measures are insufficient and that a more concrete kind of educational programme should be implemented. This is so that the youths, especially those studying in rather stressful environments, can be more open about their feelings and if symptoms of mental illnesses persist, they can be aware of the available avenues out there for them to seek help.

Certainly, more has to be done to raise awareness about mental health in Singapore, but if the relevant authorities and organisations start taking action, perhaps Singapore can be a much more happier society.

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